Daddy, don’t you see me?
Daddy, don’t you see me?
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Rain- coming this way
Drops slowly soak me
As I do not move
I asked to feel something
Bigger… than me
So I stayed a solid rock
Then I began to shake
It was cold
An order to things
I was told heaven is real
I do not need proof
How much of it is here, anyway?
The ability to suffer through the day
The same love that knitted the embryo me
The same love that helps me breathe
The same charity wherein I give
All I have is a clay body in which to live
Like a book off a shelf in heaven
Here I am plain & boring
Can I rewrite reality itself?
Wouldn’t that be super?
I wait out this day
All the doors to homes are closed
Why do I hurt nonstop?
I want to wait for a move
The land will turn around me
I will see without seeing
I will make my way
To an unknown
An unknown called “Home”
Conceived below stars
Living and had lived
Filled with resurrection powers
Did not stay dead
If he will appear
If only he will appear
If he is now near
He keeps me from losing heart
And blaming myself
I am not the one
To say I am fit to be a servant & saint
He calls me
In Our Father Holy Is Your Name
Turn the page
Under abundance of personnel
In a divorced family
Who is to take a side?
Who will leave them all behind?
Is there any repair
For what started just
Is this the end?
For myself, maybe
I’m just an uncle
No one knows my name
I am thinking
Words do not describe
All the pain of the knife
Its not my life
Yet I lost 5 people
I won’t repeat this
No ordinary life
Words cannot desc
So then, WOds cannot even desssc
Its spell CORRECT
ITS being tricky
Super Racy Love Story
Bruce met Marlene after school at his car. It was a limo actually. So he drove her from the Valley to the river gorge. There are no cell phones in this story. Fuck that shit. Also, for the remainder of the story, my lineage is Scottish, Zulu, Pigmy and Ninja.
So the guy said, “I want to see your body, Marlene.”
She took him very literally and methodicly cut herself up into pieces. The guy yelled:
“Stop! Are you a robot?” She smiled and nodded yes. He still tried to find her robot boobs and ass, but her protocol was to taze him.
So everyone is left lonely, trying to poke their WHAMMO in people. I say WHAMMO stay at home, in pants. One needs courage, not ball count.
So I choose to hold two paths and walk as one, broad road traveler sees destruction. Eyes on the prize find sanctuary.
I have money, time, health
Immobile due to moving .25 million parcels at UPS. MY L4 & L5 & SI are screwed. I was underpaid & over yelled at. It was fun. Much of my life is over. UPS- no walking, traveling, only MD appts. I’m 42. Aged 20- 24 did UPS for America. Paid just above fast food wage.
Sometimes I hurt so bad I think I don’t matter- I disassociate. Pain meds could unleash suicide attempt MDs say. I’ll accept full responsibility.
I refused to take Amlift, the dextromethorphan drug, rather refused for trial. Amlift for fibro is Robotusin DM, one spoon per day
So you see, people are sheep with pharmacy control. Are those people with a good conscience? I don’t want to be euthanized. I’m in such pain- euthanasia means I CHOOSE to die. I’m gonna let this blackberry get sweet and…
Slide right off the thorny monster
Devil Threads My Brain
Some force of weariness
Death angels scream in my body “Defeat, defeat”
Knowing my feet hurt
The Lord rebuke them
May, eloquently, each of us lie
Made in the image of God
Where there is
There must also be Reality- God everywhere. Who knows? Maybe he’s a nanoelectric being- invisible
Nana was a bitch
She drank gin WARM
Spat some on weeds to kill em
Smoked cigars, chewed
No cigarettes- “Those are for whores and GIs”
Grandpa poked away in Korea, I guess. We adopted my half-sister “Unlegite”.
No. That’s her name!
” Oon Lay Zheedt”. Korean for “Thanks for carpet bombing my family, but you have satellite TV. My mom in Korea waterboarded me when we had swim class. She wanted me to be a US SEAL. So I am. I make a killing.
Grandma says to Jimmy:
You smell like shit with sugar. Time to hose you off.
No… I’ll throw up. Go to the neighbors pool.
For now, stay outside with the dog.
I don’t like kids. No, I DO. Just not you poop killers
Its like Jar Jar and a murdering child of whoredom. Why does God hate me? He sent them, poopie and Gunnar to prove
Kill me now!
(CH 32 satellite rigged with tac nuke explosives lands in the neighborhood POOL
ARE standing too close!!
6, 5, 4…
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If you can read this, you are now totally dead and cannot hear me. Sorry. I wanted to make you laugh.
Instead, I slayed
Dado My Play-Doh
Warm Winter jacket on
All my history
All that I was is gone
Can I see to it to love someone?
I’m good for that
Not “love” like laying flat, trapped, used, bruised, perused, hit, forced
I mean suffering of #1- my wallet
\ WE HERE /
We here, me and wife, found
Her friend living where she is
Though we are Christian we do not say it. We show it. My wife’s friend stays with us indefinitely- a possibly terrible, foolish idea
But not for Carol (NRN) its escape from psychic torture. If you ask me, laws are broken in regards to things serious enough that you readers may know this much and not more
I’m retired, we are not poor. I feel more a part of The Grand Reality! Beyond games of church socializing, I live in soceity- MY society
My society is one of non stop gratitude on my knees to God that I was lucky at least for once that I’m on SSDI. I told my State (WASH DC) senator that folks on SSDI CAN IMPROVE SOCEITY in how they are abilified (Stokes n Groog Pharma pay me to type Abilify). Actually bits my idea
I’m going to call Merkley now, inform him of what we can accomplish in Disability Mode.
I am able to do someTHING?